Tag Archive: authenticity

Why go to therapy?

A story of a gay christian woman, finding real therapy outside of the Christian church she grew up in.

Time Heals

I’ve been reading through old journals and cataloging my entries. I have about 70 journals that I’ve dumped my feelings, events, sermons, processes, and thoughts into over the past 27 years and I’ve… Continue reading

Resisting Resistance

Most of us have two lives. The life we live, and the unlived life within us. Between the two stands resistance. Stephen Pressfield, The War of Art In this fast-paced world we live… Continue reading

Journey of Independence

It’s Independence Day in the United States. If I was asked by a reporter on the street what Independence Day means to me, I probably would respond with a little bit of verbiage… Continue reading

I Am A Storyteller. You Are a Story Teller. We Are The Audience of Stories.

I am a storyteller. You are a storyteller. We are the audience of stories. Here on my blog, I tell my story. I also go about my everyday life and listen to other’s… Continue reading

Pathway to Authenticity

The road to being the most authentic you isn’t always glorious or exciting. For me, the past year of craving this authenticity has also brought with it great turmoil. I have spent much… Continue reading

My Purpose Isn’t for the Four Walls of Church. My Purpose is for the Real World.

March 10, 1998 (Journal entry of mine) “…Dan encouraged me and then prophesied over me that I am going to be ministering to people – that I will affect a lot of people… Continue reading

“Jill, We Need to Talk.” Norm Willis

You can get to where you want to be from wherever you are—but you must stop spending so much time noticing and talking about what you do not like about where you are. … Continue reading

Dear Alcohol, What Are You Here For?

Push it down, it comes out sideways Push it down, it comes back up    ~ Travis Meadows, Sideways There was a time I didn’t understand why people had addictions to drugs and… Continue reading

God Made Me Gay

It is easy for some of us to be told what to think and how to think and not spend the time finding our own individual values and ethical principles. This was the… Continue reading

I don’t believe in Jesus. I believe in LOVE.

Do you know what a polemicist is without looking it up in the dictionary? I didn’t when I read in my astrological Gemini traits of a potential career. That word popped out at… Continue reading

Conscious Living Requires Courage

Worry and fear are thieves that rob us from the ability to change. Never Broken by Jewel   Why do we wait to create the life we want? Do we really know ourselves?… Continue reading

Riding the Waves of Pain

…to give up all limited thinking, to take each moment into your heart, and to abandon all urges to call anything good or bad, “black” or “white”, right or wrong, enough or not… Continue reading

I Called Bullshit on the System!

If you attend to yourself and seek to come into your presence, you will find exactly the right rhythm for your own life. John O’Donohue ~ Anam Cara   From my last blog… Continue reading

Only One Winner

I keep putting off writing here. It’s not that I don’t have plenty to say, but there is this unrelenting relationship I still engage in with my non-authentic self. My voice in life… Continue reading

Rebuilding myself at 40

 We begin to find and become ourselves when we notice how we are already found, already truly, entirely, wildly, messily, marvelously who we were born to be.    – Anne Lamott I am… Continue reading

From Bogus to Authentic: My Awakening Moment

One day you finally knew what you had to do, and began, though the voices around you kept shouting their bad advice… An excerpt from The Journey by Mary Oliver I realized I wasn’t living the life… Continue reading

Refusing To Live A Predictable Life

I think the reward for conformity is that everyone else likes you except yourself.  Rita Mae Brown The last few years of being a full-time member of a church, I kept coming back… Continue reading

trek of truth

I want truth to be mine, not someone else’s passed on to me.

Day 10 of Jumping

We are less than 6.5 hours drive from my mama’s new life and home in JAX! Today we had the shortest driving day since we left 10 days ago from Seattle, WA. First… Continue reading

  • A Little About Me

    My name is Jill. I’m a writer, deep thinker and on a quest to BE PRESENT and BE LOVE. I’m an ex-churchgoer. I’ve lived in 27 different places in my life. I was once an island dweller and I’ve been a pioneer in a handful of start-up organizations in the USA, Switzerland, and Honduras. Oh and I should mention that I was a real 40-yr-old virgin  when I came out. I hope to validate others experiences in abusive churches by sharing my stories and truths. I want you to leave here thinking differently and honoring that still small voice within you.

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