Journey of Independence

It’s Independence Day in the United States. If I was asked by a reporter on the street what Independence Day means to me, I probably would respond with a little bit of verbiage… Continue reading

Love Bath

“It is an absolute human certainty that no one can know his own beauty or perceive a sense of his own worth until it has been reflected back to him in the mirror… Continue reading

Acceptance

“The next message you need is always right where you are.” Ram Dass I am 46 years old and not sleeping through the night is a regular thing now. I keep imagining my… Continue reading

Time Heals

I’ve been reading through old journals and cataloging my entries. I have about 70 journals that I’ve dumped my feelings, events, sermons, processes, and thoughts into over the past 27 years and I’ve… Continue reading

Marriage Practice

Like anything you want to be good at, you must practice. Jac Cash My wife and I do our best to reserve each Sunday as our day to be spontaneous and do something… Continue reading

Bites of Narcissism

“…ministry is a magnet for narcissistic personality – who else would want to speak on behalf of God every week?” A friend of mine recently started a group on Facebook for those who… Continue reading

I Picked Me

“Reject the tyranny of picked. Pick yourself.” ― Seth Godin, Poke the Box At 34 years old, I was growing tired of who I had become. I was at church or church events nearly 5… Continue reading

Resisting Resistance

Most of us have two lives. The life we live, and the unlived life within us. Between the two stands resistance. Stephen Pressfield, The War of Art In this fast-paced world we live… Continue reading

Our Words Can Heal

I am part of the LGTBQ+ community. I have been my entire life. But I wasn’t courageous enough to join this brave community until I was 40 years old. At 40, I was… Continue reading

Life in the River

As a Gemini, I have a strong propensity to overthink and overanalyze everything. And by everything I mean things like: Am I being a great friend? Did I listen to my niece yesterday… Continue reading

Awake With Thoughts

I didn’t sleep very soundly last night. Our bed gets warm and it’s too soft for me. But I also feel like I’m just not taking care of myself and this is affecting… Continue reading

Christians: Tell Me How Trump Reflects Your Jesus?

In the 30 years that I attended organized Christian churches, there were political messages in the sermons on Sunday mornings. In the last church I went to, Christ Church Kirkland, there were actually… Continue reading

Trash-Talking = Victim Mentality

What if in skipping the pain, I was missing my lessons? ~ Glennon Doyle When I choose to remain silent, even though my gut, my body, my mind, and my heart are all… Continue reading

FOR FUCK’S SAKE – I just want to love MYSELF

Staying vulnerable is a risk we have to take if we want to experience connection. ~ Bréne Brown I’m only interested in connecting on a REAL, HUMAN level, so read on if you… Continue reading

The Secrets Christians Keep

It did feel like a secret at the time because of all of our Christian beliefs about homosexuality. I guess the only remedy was my leaving to go back to the USA. Our… Continue reading

Wisdom Within

You can’t always control what goes on outside, but you can always control what goes on inside.  ~Wayne Dyer   When I entered my 20’s, I was oblivious to how stress can affect… Continue reading

I Am A Storyteller. You Are a Story Teller. We Are The Audience of Stories.

I am a storyteller. You are a storyteller. We are the audience of stories. Here on my blog, I tell my story. I also go about my everyday life and listen to other’s… Continue reading

Why I Don’t Believe That Jesus Is My Savior

A friend of mine recently turned me on to Pete Holmes podcast, which I never would have chosen from the title of his show, “You Made It Weird”, but thankfully I have vowed… Continue reading

When Church Leaders Abuse Their Position

At the young age of 22, I entered into a youth program through Christ Church Kirkland (CCK), called Master’s Commission. This was an intense one year course, that focused on discipleship & leadership… Continue reading

  • A Little About Me

    My name is Jill. I’m a writer, deep thinker and on a quest to BE PRESENT and BE LOVE. I’m an ex-churchgoer. I’ve lived in 27 different places in my life. I was once an island dweller and I’ve been a pioneer in a handful of start-up organizations in the USA, Switzerland, and Honduras. Oh and I should mention that I was a real 40-yr-old virgin  when I came out. I hope to validate others experiences in abusive churches by sharing my stories and truths. I want you to leave here thinking differently and honoring that still small voice within you.

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