Category Archive: Daily Life

Hi, Grandma. I Miss You.

Twenty-seven years ago today, I timidly walked into the room where my grandma was lying. I wish it was her own room but this room was helping her stay alive. I was told… Continue reading

Love Bath

“It is an absolute human certainty that no one can know his own beauty or perceive a sense of his own worth until it has been reflected back to him in the mirror… Continue reading

The Answer Is Within

I was on an errand today, making my final destination to La Conner, by way of winding through Skagit Valley backroads. There were fields of tulips beaming their bright rays to every passerby.… Continue reading

Marriage Practice

Like anything you want to be good at, you must practice. Jac Cash My wife and I do our best to reserve each Sunday as our day to be spontaneous and do something… Continue reading

Our Words Can Heal

I am part of the LGTBQ+ community. I have been my entire life. But I wasn’t courageous enough to join this brave community until I was 40 years old. At 40, I was… Continue reading

Journey of Independence

It’s Independence Day in the United States. If I was asked by a reporter on the street what Independence Day means to me, I probably would respond with a little bit of verbiage… Continue reading

Life in the River

As a Gemini, I have a strong propensity to overthink and overanalyze everything. And by everything I mean things like: Am I being a great friend? Did I listen to my niece yesterday… Continue reading

Awake With Thoughts

I didn’t sleep very soundly last night. Our bed gets warm and it’s too soft for me. But I also feel like I’m just not taking care of myself and this is affecting… Continue reading

Christians: Tell Me How Trump Reflects Your Jesus?

In the 30 years that I attended organized Christian churches, there were political messages in the sermons on Sunday mornings. In the last church I went to, Christ Church Kirkland, there were actually… Continue reading

Trash-Talking = Victim Mentality

What if in skipping the pain, I was missing my lessons? ~ Glennon Doyle When I choose to remain silent, even though my gut, my body, my mind, and my heart are all… Continue reading

FOR FUCK’S SAKE – I just want to love MYSELF

Staying vulnerable is a risk we have to take if we want to experience connection. ~ Bréne Brown I’m only interested in connecting on a REAL, HUMAN level, so read on if you… Continue reading

The Secrets Christians Keep

It did feel like a secret at the time because of all of our Christian beliefs about homosexuality. I guess the only remedy was my leaving to go back to the USA. Our… Continue reading

Wisdom Within

You can’t always control what goes on outside, but you can always control what goes on inside.  ~Wayne Dyer   When I entered my 20’s, I was oblivious to how stress can affect… Continue reading

I Am A Storyteller. You Are a Story Teller. We Are The Audience of Stories.

I am a storyteller. You are a storyteller. We are the audience of stories. Here on my blog, I tell my story. I also go about my everyday life and listen to other’s… Continue reading

Why I Don’t Believe That Jesus Is My Savior

A friend of mine recently turned me on to Pete Holmes podcast, which I never would have chosen from the title of his show, “You Made It Weird”, but thankfully I have vowed… Continue reading

When Church Leaders Abuse Their Position

At the young age of 22, I entered into a youth program through Christ Church Kirkland (CCK), called Master’s Commission. This was an intense one year course, that focused on discipleship & leadership… Continue reading

Pathway to Authenticity

The road to being the most authentic you isn’t always glorious or exciting. For me, the past year of craving this authenticity has also brought with it great turmoil. I have spent much… Continue reading

Close Your Bible. Open Your Mind.

To all the Christians who think people who commit certain “sins” are going to hell, well, I must tell you, I would rather be in “hell” with all the loving, accepting, free-thinking people… Continue reading

How A Pastor’s Kid Survived Sexual and Emotional Suppression, Came Out Gay and Got Married at 44 Years Old

Okay, this is going to be a bit lengthy, so if you need to make some popcorn or pour a glass of wine, I would suggest doing it now. This is Netflix material!… Continue reading

My Purpose Isn’t for the Four Walls of Church. My Purpose is for the Real World.

March 10, 1998 (Journal entry of mine) “…Dan encouraged me and then prophesied over me that I am going to be ministering to people – that I will affect a lot of people… Continue reading

  • A Little About Me

    My name is Jill. I’m a writer, deep thinker and on a quest to BE PRESENT and BE LOVE. I’m an ex-churchgoer. I’ve lived in 27 different places in my life. I was once an island dweller and I’ve been a pioneer in a handful of start-up organizations in the USA, Switzerland, and Honduras. Oh and I should mention that I was a real 40-yr-old virgin  when I came out. I hope to validate others experiences in abusive churches by sharing my stories and truths. I want you to leave here thinking differently and honoring that still small voice within you.

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