Tag Archive: God

Why go to therapy?

A story of a gay christian woman, finding real therapy outside of the Christian church she grew up in.

The Answer Is Within

I was on an errand today, making my final destination to La Conner, by way of winding through Skagit Valley backroads. There were fields of tulips beaming their bright rays to every passerby.… Continue reading

Our Words Can Heal

I am part of the LGTBQ+ community. I have been my entire life. But I wasn’t courageous enough to join this brave community until I was 40 years old. At 40, I was… Continue reading

Journey of Independence

It’s Independence Day in the United States. If I was asked by a reporter on the street what Independence Day means to me, I probably would respond with a little bit of verbiage… Continue reading

Why I Don’t Believe That Jesus Is My Savior

A friend of mine recently turned me on to Pete Holmes podcast, which I never would have chosen from the title of his show, “You Made It Weird”, but thankfully I have vowed… Continue reading

When Church Leaders Abuse Their Position

At the young age of 22, I entered into a youth program through Christ Church Kirkland (CCK), called Master’s Commission. This was an intense one year course, that focused on discipleship & leadership… Continue reading

Close Your Bible. Open Your Mind.

To all the Christians who think people who commit certain “sins” are going to hell, well, I must tell you, I would rather be in “hell” with all the loving, accepting, free-thinking people… Continue reading

I Was A “True Believer”

I recently read an article that a friend sent me and it validated in fresh words, why I have felt more anger and depression and grief from exiting Christ Church Kirkland, than others… Continue reading

“Jill, We Need to Talk.” Norm Willis

You can get to where you want to be from wherever you are—but you must stop spending so much time noticing and talking about what you do not like about where you are. … Continue reading

God Made Me Gay

It is easy for some of us to be told what to think and how to think and not spend the time finding our own individual values and ethical principles. This was the… Continue reading

At Christ Church Kirkland I learned, “I’ll love you as long as…”

  For years at Christ Church Kirkland, my life decisions were heavily influenced by my mentors. Mentors or as we called them, “discipler’s”, were those more spiritual than me that I was mandated to… Continue reading

The Infallible Word of Jill

Since I was 5 years old, I was going to church and reading the bible or having the bible read to me. When I was around 6 years old, my family and I went… Continue reading

I don’t believe in Jesus. I believe in LOVE.

Do you know what a polemicist is without looking it up in the dictionary? I didn’t when I read in my astrological Gemini traits of a potential career. That word popped out at… Continue reading

I Called Bullshit on the System!

If you attend to yourself and seek to come into your presence, you will find exactly the right rhythm for your own life. John O’Donohue ~ Anam Cara   From my last blog… Continue reading

Refusing To Live A Predictable Life

I think the reward for conformity is that everyone else likes you except yourself.  Rita Mae Brown The last few years of being a full-time member of a church, I kept coming back… Continue reading

trek of truth

I want truth to be mine, not someone else’s passed on to me.

Christians, let me ruffle your feathers!

WARNING: If you are sensitive about your Christian faith, and don’t want to hear anything negative about Christians, then I suggest reading something lighter. Here are a few blogs you might enjoy to feel comforted… Continue reading

The unpracticed art of “being”

I think people easily forget that we are human-BEINGS. With the pace of people’s lives I see all-around me, I would naturally think we are human-DOINGS. The other day I was getting my hair… Continue reading

Learning beautiful simplicity

(This is my journal entry from March 29, 2013) When something comes to your attention, ask me whether or not it is part of today’s agenda. If it isn’t, release it into my… Continue reading

Give yourself space.

A few months ago I was scrubbing my white hand towels on a washboard outside in the sunshine. (Cause ya’ know sometimes the washing machine just doesn’t cut it:) This is the kind… Continue reading

  • A Little About Me

    My name is Jill. I’m a writer, deep thinker and on a quest to BE PRESENT and BE LOVE. I’m an ex-churchgoer. I’ve lived in 27 different places in my life. I was once an island dweller and I’ve been a pioneer in a handful of start-up organizations in the USA, Switzerland, and Honduras. Oh and I should mention that I was a real 40-yr-old virgin  when I came out. I hope to validate others experiences in abusive churches by sharing my stories and truths. I want you to leave here thinking differently and honoring that still small voice within you.

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