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Bites of Narcissism

“…ministry is a magnet for narcissistic personality – who else would want to speak on behalf of God every week?” A friend of mine recently started a group on Facebook for those who… Continue reading

I Picked Me

“Reject the tyranny of picked. Pick yourself.” ― Seth Godin, Poke the Box At 34 years old, I was growing tired of who I had become. I was at church or church events nearly 5… Continue reading

Resisting Resistance

Most of us have two lives. The life we live, and the unlived life within us. Between the two stands resistance. Stephen Pressfield, The War of Art In this fast-paced world we live… Continue reading

Journey of Independence

It’s Independence Day in the United States. If I was asked by a reporter on the street what Independence Day means to me, I probably would respond with a little bit of verbiage… Continue reading

Christians: Tell Me How Trump Reflects Your Jesus?

In the 30 years that I attended organized Christian churches, there were political messages in the sermons on Sunday mornings. In the last church I went to, Christ Church Kirkland, there were actually… Continue reading

The Secrets Christians Keep

It did feel like a secret at the time because of all of our Christian beliefs about homosexuality. I guess the only remedy was my leaving to go back to the USA. Our… Continue reading

Wisdom Within

You can’t always control what goes on outside, but you can always control what goes on inside.  ~Wayne Dyer   When I entered my 20’s, I was oblivious to how stress can affect… Continue reading

When Church Leaders Abuse Their Position

At the young age of 22, I entered into a youth program through Christ Church Kirkland (CCK), called Master’s Commission. This was an intense one year course, that focused on discipleship & leadership… Continue reading

Close Your Bible. Open Your Mind.

To all the Christians who think people who commit certain “sins” are going to hell, well, I must tell you, I would rather be in “hell” with all the loving, accepting, free-thinking people… Continue reading

My Purpose Isn’t for the Four Walls of Church. My Purpose is for the Real World.

March 10, 1998 (Journal entry of mine) “…Dan encouraged me and then prophesied over me that I am going to be ministering to people – that I will affect a lot of people… Continue reading

I Was A “True Believer”

I recently read an article that a friend sent me and it validated in fresh words, why I have felt more anger and depression and grief from exiting Christ Church Kirkland, than others… Continue reading

The Bible and The Church Never Taught Me Unconditional Love

I started going to church with my family at 5 years old. For 30 years, I attended church every week. I read my Bible every day. My life was Christianity, the church and… Continue reading

“Jill, We Need to Talk.” Norm Willis

You can get to where you want to be from wherever you are—but you must stop spending so much time noticing and talking about what you do not like about where you are. … Continue reading

God Made Me Gay

It is easy for some of us to be told what to think and how to think and not spend the time finding our own individual values and ethical principles. This was the… Continue reading

GOD = LOVE

I was wired at birth to be forging the way for deep, meaningful, and life-giving relationships. I take my friendships seriously, and place great importance on their place in my life. (Often times,… Continue reading

At Christ Church Kirkland I learned, “I’ll love you as long as…”

  For years at Christ Church Kirkland, my life decisions were heavily influenced by my mentors. Mentors or as we called them, “discipler’s”, were those more spiritual than me that I was mandated to… Continue reading

I don’t believe in Jesus. I believe in LOVE.

Do you know what a polemicist is without looking it up in the dictionary? I didn’t when I read in my astrological Gemini traits of a potential career. That word popped out at… Continue reading

  • A Little About Me

    My name is Jill. I’m a writer, deep thinker and on a quest to BE PRESENT and BE LOVE. I’m an ex-churchgoer. I’ve lived in 27 different places in my life. I was once an island dweller and I’ve been a pioneer in a handful of start-up organizations in the USA, Switzerland, and Honduras. Oh and I should mention that I was a real 40-yr-old virgin  when I came out. I hope to validate others experiences in abusive churches by sharing my stories and truths. I want you to leave here thinking differently and honoring that still small voice within you.

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